random thoughts...
today was kinda interesting in many ways. Let me share with you my random thoughts.
1. My CO gave the whole unit night's off today to celebrate V-day...haha...the older ones were some to do our part in Total Defense Day (15Feb) and contribute to national security by adding into our population...Hahaa...(National Service calls!)
2. I'm finally getting promoted on the 16th Feb. But no news if they back pay me... its not really the money, or the rank, but I believe, I can get things done better in this regemental system...of ours...and to top it off, some newbie decided to add aloud, "Wah, MC so many days still can get promoted!" ---> tat comment was hurtful, but I don't feel guilty since I've been in the unit before he even enlisted. I'm assured of my contribution. So it only proves how flawed human judgment can be.
3. On the course of travelling to courier my package this evening, I kept praying and while 'coldplay' was playing, I sense the Holy spirit speaking to me abt my situation now.. It wasn't like, instant--> healing, but things for me to meditate and pray over. Abt things such as, wat can we depend on each partner when in a r/s and wat are the things we've to take personal responsibilty...Let me give u an example, since this was wat it came to me, An individual's personal growth/ambition is a personal responsibilty not 'owned' by the couple. Its the individual tat has to learn to exercise decision-making, making new friends/piorities etc...Couple responsibilites should be issues like communication between each other, giving each other to grow and being able to give the person to discover who God wants him/her to be. Not moulding her or possessing him/her into someone you prefer.
4.Prata dinner was bad..I'm not sure if its the food, or the lack of desire for me to eat these days. I really can't eat much. It seems i'm getting to throw up easier now. Yeah, I may look better, esp after a good shower and painkillers to boot, but I hope tat the Lord gives me more strength each day, so tat I won't attract attention when I leave the train(its kinda low morale) or starting puking while waiting for bus.
5. It was rather interesting watching ppl on the NEL tonight. SOme couples were obivious in joy, while there were a few sullen faces as expected.One lady stood out, she was sitting next to another miss, each were carrying flowers with them. The lady tat caught my attention, was looking at the flowers, with so much thought going in her head, as she was staring at the flowers, looking kinda stern but also happy she had one. I just pray tat this lady wil have joy restored in her soon. Her flowers were much nicer than the others....(n I didn't give any roses/flowers this year, becoz...I didn't think it was approriate...so my gift then, would be not giving flowers this year...)
6.I'm home...tired. But glad tat God has sustain me for another day. Though my body wastes away daily, I'm glad tat my spirit is being renewed each day. I pray tat everyone sick, will continue to seek healing(n be healed) and live brightly for Christ and let your weak health be a testmony for his work in you. : )
and if someone said u look good(ok-healthier) take it as a blessing, and give God the glory tat ur body was good for tat moment. Cheers.