living thru decisions made.
we all make decisions tat we're not proud of at times of our lives. Sometimes its the lesser of 2 evils. Sometimes, it just have to be done.
Wateva it is..its us living thru the decisions made.
There can be spokes-persons...but the ppl living thru the decisions, can only be the ppl affected by it.
is it wrong to look back? Or desiring to U-turn? Or looking forward? I think each situation, there isn't a clear YES/NO. I guess its really having to do with our motives and if we can accept the results upon our decision.
An example--A smoker choose to smoke. Yes, he might get lung cancer, he has also endangered his family due to 2nd hand-smoke. The smoker lives with the daily result every single day. Even if he isn't aware, doesn't mean its any less.
I only learn tat it'll be a waste if pride is in the way or if we aren't sure its worth the trouble. I guess the motive is very important. And the desire to let your motive be expressed well, its ideally up to Godly wisdom.
On a personal level, I've been apologising alot these days. Yes, my motives may be right, but...I may not be worthy.Therefore I apologise. I'm thankful there have been several friends tat have stood by me all these while. Its time like this, we know our friends better. N we also know who's motives are suspect, and becoz so ,they flee from u. They avoid u, and u wonder y...esp since there hasn't been a direct connection ...but before the brain goes into over-time..and all the silly theories come out, I can only be certain of 1 thing.
God knows our motives. He knows the motives we've for ppl. And in us, he gave us a 'conscience'..So..live a life of honesty and conscience will give u an easier time. If not...well...we live out the result of not having the right motive and be tested.
I've so much more to say...like how i'm accepting the singleness..and how I'm accepting life on the ignore list. And I'm so thankful tat I've a love from God tat won't let me go.
As for ppl...well.. I only desire to let them know, God is alive.
W/o him being real, I won't be here.
and I'm living thru the consquence of decisions made by me and others.
God is with me. Thank u.