the start of the week.
I felt being taught by the Lord the last 2 days, and I believe it will be lead on the next few days-weeks to come. Let me share this super log entry today.
1. Our Love for God has to be so strong tat at times, compared to our love for others, it might been seen as 'hate'. Not anger but hate. If we stretch the specturm of emotion regarding love, then hate would be miles apart. And maybe tat is wat it means to LOVE GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND ALL YOUR SOUL. This is such a challenge for me, since I'm kinda lost abt L.O.V.E. but I've faith tat God will show me his measure...since the CROSS stands as the ultimate symbol of love ...till eternity.
2. Having contentment. The Psalm 23 was the key for cell today at my place. "The Lord is my shepard, I shall not be at want."
From the author Max Lucado and his chpt on being a prisoner of want...really lifted my spirit today. Without ripping off this chpt..(I was only given this chpt to read!!) The many points brought up by the author and with the Holy Spirit's guidance, ... i was being taught today.
"What I have in God is greater than what I don't have in life."
Couple of months ago, I was blessed with the gift of contentment in relationships. Thru-out the relationships, I never felt the urge tat the 'grass' is greener on the other side. Wat a blessing it was.
But since then, I admit that I haven't been contented. I feel I deserve better. Maybe I do, but even if i did, with this stinky attitude, how can I be able to embrace wat God has given me now.
Even the 2 bibical truth shared in the chpt was personal to me.
a. YOUR STUFF ISN'T YOURS. Even in r/s I've acknowledge that God has been a part of it. Since he was, and I allow him to be my personal Lord ...I can't do much, except TRUSTING him tat he won't waste a tear in my life, he has no plans to harm me nor anyone. We can screw up. But GOD WILL NOT.
b.MY BELONGING DOESN'T DEFINE ME...The biggest possesion I own now, is my personal luggage of emotional pain. But neither tat does my failure (constantly increasing!!) nor my success define who I'm. Who I'm.. is in the LORD. I'm his CHILD. HIS CLAY. HIS CANVAS. If I claim my own life, I surely will lose it. Truth.
---in summary on contentment..
If I've the Shepherd, grace for every sin, direction for every turn, candle for every corner, anchor for every storm...I've everything I need in this journey. Not tat beyond all this isn't important, they're. But to learn contment, this above mention is the start.
Thus, from these days forth, I pray that I will not keep waiting for a f/s that may not happen ... or keeping placing my hope in things tat are unpredictable.
Learning contentment isn't being numb to pain...but its having gratitude despite the pain. Its a decision to trust in the LORD. Our innermost desires, the Lord already knows, and I believe he will never deny a good gift to his children, its only a matter if it'll benefit us and if we know how to appreciate it.
Today. There was rain. What a fitting confirmation for me, that the flames of my discontment be washed away by his living water. and I'm going to be content tat my dinner tonight will be instant prawn mee. Cheers to all.
May you be blessed with the gift of contentment from the Lord.