a headache.

sometimes, our heads feels so heavy..tired n all.. Sometimes, my joints seem to struggle against my own body mass. oh..its another day.

sometimes i do wonder why i rest, esp since there are so many days to wake-up feeling worst than when u rest the night before. But we rest, becoz we want to give our body a time to re-charge itself. A re-newing process. A mircale every-single-day.

i've been hearing comments tat I'm outdated..such as my mobile phones, my not-joining the MSN craze(its in the maturity stage!!)...still having an ICQ a/c...not having 'hip' shoes etc. It took me many months before I even joined FRIENDSTER. but u see, I don't feel a need to be in. In any case, I have to be real to myself to others. I won't join MSN, and have millions on my list, and not even bother abt them when they come online. Its great to be connected...but..I don't wish it to be just-....
I hope to be 'accepted' tat I'm not part of the 'IN' crowd. Yes, I would like to be respected for who I'm...not wat i should be.
I know from some personailty test, tat somehow i belong to a minority. I have given up trying to fit in. Not tat I'm proud I'm different, so often I wish i wasn't..but God has a plan for me. And I don't wish to be distracted ...trying to fit in.
Yes, I'm a out person. Not proud of it, but accepting my TAG.
.........let me end this week-day..(I dread weekends other than Cell-time...becoz of it can be sad..) with this little note from someone loving and precious...some time ago....
It just sums up my life till now--
"I asked God to make those with handicapped whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me."