doing wat I've to do.
someone once remarked it very well...
let man be man, let God be god.
When we've a man trying to be God, he's mad. He'll be damn.
When we had God becoming man, he became salvation.

I've decided to do wat i've to do.
If your right eye costs u to sin, its better to gouge it out then to let the whole body die in eternity.
Since, I'm a cause for someone I love dearly to sin, then, I've to be cut off..I don't wish for her to dwell in sin.
A union such as I had, only death could really seperate us.

I'm usually guilty of putting others before myself, and at times, before God himself. Tat's my weakness. I pray that God can forgive me once again.

When I'm done with my special project for her, documenting and thanking her for the beauty we had, and my responsibilites done, I'm ready to have my spirit judged.

I'm not asking to die. In-fact I've a passion for living and spread the good news, but my life isn't mine. Its no point when u scored a goal, and no-one is there to delight with u. Families are dear to me, on earth, I had 2..1 was pretty obivious, the other, is breaking apart.

Thus its not juz becoz of her, tat I ask God to recieve my spirit..but becoz I no longer can trust my heart not to 'pressure' her etc.

I want to thank all the people tat have been a blessing in my life. And all those tat have allowed me to bless. I'll be around.. still smiling..while a part of me, will be judge and meet my maker.

Thank u everyone for their encouragement the last few days.

Grace be upon u.