-->What am I to you?

Anyone heard this song from Norah Jones?
Lovely.. in her unique manner, she asks a simple thought-provoking question.

What am I to you? What are you to others?

Its my greatest regret; that my failure as a testimony, communicating to the world that who I'm today, what I can be, is all due to above. Nothing else.

Why do I labour? To provide for friends, family.. love ones..

Why do I do so for my loved ones? 'becoz of love from above showered in my life.

So wat's my response? Simply to love others, to travel that extra mmile not becoz I'm a nice guy, but becoz that is my daily life pour in reverence to the love that I don't deserved. To kingly grace that I need so badly.

I'm a perfectly weak person. I claim not to be a strong believer, not a reverend leader, becoz how does one lead with no-one to follow.. But I believe in making an IMPACT in the lives of others. For my life has been impacted.

So What am I to you? I know I'm weak. I wished for so many 2nd chance. I wished you could trust me, not avoid me. But I cannont force you. Only you can make yourself accept me. What have I done wrong? What price must I pay for your friendship, love. Am I so horrid?

I don't wait for love. How'on.. I'm a sick man. I've handicaps, and more so than anyone else. I live in a life of physical pain always. Pain keeps me on my toes, and I know life is so short. I can't forever keep trying to restore broken or wandering friendships. I'm willingly to invest, but it seems I'm all too late..

~all at sea.~~~~~~~~

But no matter what, friends.. I love you. For you all mean something special to me. Each one of you, some more than the rest. But I'll treasure the moments we had, and look forward to the future ...till we meet again in heaven.

"In the end, everything will be okay; if its not okay, then its not the end!" - Dr. Andrew Goh,@ National Primary Young Leaders Day 2005