Its been 2 weeks
since that fateful day when I finally asked what's wrong with this particular friendship that had been the centre of my focus for sometime.

For 2 weeks, I've been wondering, and even during my quiet time and through reflection, I sat there wondering, and praying constantly, Lord, what have I done again to have broken something that you've blessed me with?

Sigh. It hurts.

I feel like a terrible steward of God's intangible gifts in my life. I am troubled coz I've been poor in defending the interest and protecting my fellow sisters in Christ.

I used to believe that only the boyfriends or partners of a lady would need the security of a male. But recently, through my time with God and reflection, I realize how wrong I've been.

I need to learn to defend the interest of my sisters in Christ. I gotta help reduce the confusion, pray with them and be even more sincere and open in my affection to them. Besides not just having the right intentions, I gotta be more careful to have the right follow-up so that no matter what happens, it will not be just the right thing to do, but the most delightful thing I can do for the sister.

What does it mean in measurable terms?

Simply, I gotta position myself in the manner that I won't just look after my own interest but instead, I gotta be the protector of my sister, love her as my own and most importantly help her love God more each day and not draw her away from him.

It took me two weeks to learn all these. Whether I can a chance to reconcile that relationship is another story altogether.