Battling on

Soccer season, at least Church wise is drawing to a close..Well, with a strain calf its a good time to let my body rest, but looking back at this year's short soccer season for me, it has been like a fickle of my life in the last few years. There were instances of brilliance, good solid displays and many hours of disappoint and frustration of being left out, or falling way below personal expectations. I play in the forward position, and being so often used as a substitutive or a 'we need 1 more' player has been personally frustrating. Its now a challenge for me to get match sharpness, fitness and most importantly some form of chemistry between me and my team mates.. Urgh! when things seem to get better, my body breaks down. And its a re-boot. Oh well!!

There's a part of me that tells me to give up, sports and all that competitiveness... but I'm not sure if its my ego or a plain desire to find out if I still have gas(energy) in me... I find it hard to let go. I'll never be that someone who is able to sit in front of a PC terminal chalking up hours of game time and feel satisfied. I don't think there's anything that can replace the ad reline of playing against the odds, against challenging environments. In fact, when I look back, its when the odds are against me that I soar and my best comes out..

I think that is going to be the same approach that I should undertake for my relationships. Over the weekend, it was heart-warming to have old friends to recognise you, and genuinely ask how you're. I think I'm like most of us; there is the need to be at least recognised of your presence. But, I'm committing myself that I will learn to take relationships with a pinch of salt, and let nature takes its course. Its like belaying, you gotta give enough 'slack' to have the mobility in the relationship to climb forward, but still 'taugh' enough to feel the security and assurance. So when it comes to romance, well, I gotta work on my own issues and be desirable for that special lady I strive to be suitable for..when the season is ripe.

Life can be such a battle at times, but having gone through the different phases, I must say God's faithfulness have been always there for me. His grace is sufficient for me.

In you my Lord, I'm complete.