A walking bull having constipation.

Do you know what's the feeling like to be a bull in a state of constipation. Full of s*&t!
First I start with a worry of hurting someone, instead.. I end the evening by really doing so; totally unexpectedly.
What can I say? Honestly, I hate to say things to justify myself, but my immediate reaction was to be as forthright as I could be. Bloody bulls*&t eh?
I had no intention to hurt this buddy, but well, what I've said, I can't take it back.
I didn't even know it was an issue, and a stupid stupid intention, in the end becomes a pissed off instead. In some ways, I'm glad maybe that my original plan didn't work.

Isn't this one of life's greatest lessons, the bigger fear you may have, the more you want to avoid, the more likely will happen.

I've a morbid fear of hurting people, thus I don't even meet people often..but when I've.. I 'm having such successes hurting people, and someone close to my heart no less.

Father, strike me oh Lord.
For I deserve your judgement.