Oh Well..

I'm not writing the following to complain or point fingers at people; but hopefully anyone going thru what I'm writing can indentify with me.. and let me share with those who are on the other end.. what it feels..

background
I've been actively involved in a buddy's wedding plans; a church wedding...etc.. I've gotten feedback that as if I'm running the show~diving in to avoid things; or becoz I enjoy doing things etc...The last that I wanted to do is to mirco-manage the event.. or make it my pet project..

Well.. although alot of those talk can be said in the most candid or amusing delivery... the sting of the critical key message doesn't always lessen.

I believe that these critics have their valid points.. but sometimes; I look back.. and wonder.. in what capacity do u judge me? when its your time to do so.. do you compare your efforts and mine? I don't think its fair for either of us.

I truly appreciate the trust the couple has given to me.. but its with a sense of fear, I'm careful and appreciate that all these things are done well thru the grace of God. I've been raised at a young age to give an effort that would bring honour not to myself.. but to whom I represent.. my family.. my God. That brings me greater joy.

As for my detractors of sorts.. Well.. I'm not doing this for fun.. neither am I doing this as a busybody.. since it doesn't make sense.. with work piling up too.. If you call me a micro-manager of sorts...yesh.. I do make the effort to plan for possible scenarios.. but I'm also a staunch believer of delegation and passing on skills to our jnrs.

In plain simple.. thoughts..

I'm do my best.. becoz I believe since I've been asked to do a favour for 2 people's special occasion.. I do it to the best that I can.. and its not becoz the glory is for me.. but becoz its a celebration for 2 people that I cherish; the love and affection has been a blessing.. and I would continue to do so becoz they deserve the very best that I can give. Like faith; I've counted the cost.. and I understand the payment.. but thru it all... my decision hasn't wavered.. not do I need to lament if I don't get what people think I deserve.

There's already an honour; blessing to be involved in people's life. That's an intangible gift.. money cannot buy.