The Teacher named Pain

The greatest teacher in my short life, has been Pain.
Physical, Emotional... pain have taught more things in my life and has been able to prove my charachter, my thoughts more than I imagine.

Although I'm not loving it, but pain itself, is such a wonderful teacher in my life, that I'm really learning to embrace it more than ever. But with embracing pain or suffering, agony ... the impact seems to lessen, so does the beauty of love, affection and attention.

Physical pain has taught me the plan set-out for me from above. Without it, I wouldn't be carrying the scars, but neither would the depth (actually shallow) of my personality and preservence be moulded. Humility, perspective wouldn't have been challenge so often; neither would the opportunity of friendships, and lifestyle be changed ...

Emotional pain has wisen me up...the manner I approach life. Although, I still regard myself very much the fool, but I'm a glad fool. I'm glad I no longer worry about waiting for love, or ... attention.. emotional pain has reminded me where my bedrock should be. For the very investment we place in humans, a great risk, the returns are always enjoyable. But like it or not, I think we fail people just as often. We can have the right intentions, but we're not God. So let's remain human.

One man above others taught me about pain.. and how we can learn from it. Although I've never finished reading his books, Mr Bob Sorge..his sermons & seeing him around has become the greatest teacher of pain~perspective in my life. If you ever get the chance, you would be blessed by his sharing.

Here I'm... writting all these at 3am in the morning. The whole week has been really full-steam work in my new career. But I believe this work has been arranged for me from above. Indeed, I'm eternally thankful for his providence, although I don't have much, but to have enough to bless others...is a blessing by itself.

Without taking my painkillers for close to a month now, the pain is horrid. It reminds me of my human limits, but it also makes me feel alive. Feel closer to him. Like it or not, pain is one of the most powerful manner God uses to mould us to be like his son. Not all pain is God-honouring though, but pain changes things.

I'm in pain. But I rather feel it, then feel nothing at all.