emotions. & death.

Life is full of emotions eh?

Painful,happiness,
disappointment, serene..

I don't think its ever going to be within my grasp to fully control my emotions,
but maybe I could work on how to allow emotions control other aspects of my life.. my spiritual walk and physcial ...

Emotions such as facing death...
Death, once again has been on my mind...it usually comes as the great question to me, I would face it daily when I'm conscious, when I'm facing the next day. Would today be the day, I ask...If so, wat would I do...

And do you know, if today was indeed the last day, I wouldn't want to do anything extra-ordinary..(no shopping!! nor bowling, all day!) instead, I would continue to try to meet friends,have dinner at home with my family, and be gracious and loving to as many people as possible.

Trust me..the day isn't tat far away, my body assures. N emotionally,I'm kinda ready, as ready as I can be. In life, there will always be regerts due to our fallen nature, and I can only reach out to those that wants to be, make mends with those that are willing...etc.. so although there're many loose ends in my life, and I would love to tie them up, but I don't death nor interrupation in life is so kind to allow you to fix those things first. Its come as what you may.

I would like to leave as serene as possible, thanking those who have mattered in my life...and as I fight for air, I'm reminded of the wonderful blessing that my lungs and heart are still healthy now..they will continue to fight for the next day..and so should I..

emotions makes us alive, one of the difference between us and apes, beasts.

how we pick up from fallen emotions do partly define our charachters.

let's fully 'enjoy' our emotions, but learn how to detach ourselves before it overwhelms our lives and spin it out of control.

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