Rain on us.

My cell leader played this song abt the rain of God upon us.
IS it a kinda of shower or a thunderstorm?
To give life or to take it away?

Yes. I do sin. Hands up to admit it.
It ain't pretty.
but I ain't accepting it in my life.

I thank God even at this turning point of my life,
he has blessed me so much.
What has been revealed to my heart ...to my limit mind..
has really made me meditate over them.
so much tat my own personal situations become minute.

I've been praying over the issue of balance in our lives. A balance beam.
Questions that I've ponder include why did God allow hate ? Could we have understood preference if we were not able to understand our dislikes?
All these thoughts finally gave me a conclusion...that all these isn't by chance. Its to demostrate God's living presence & his awesome goodness.
He's a master engineer... making use of every craft at his disposal to mould us. He'll not sheltar us from the storms in our lifes, but he'll provide a route out. He'll deliver on his promise. We may not like it, doesn't mean its not good for us.

That's only part 1. Any I've many more to share..including wat I've learn in the last 5months..; Next--> I've finally understood in some measure that following Jesus and serving others. To what end is our love for our fellow brothers & sisters? It isn't just washing the feet of others...it includes becoming the broken bread, the poured out wine for our community. How about relationships?
I've gotten a little more grasp in understanding the role of women & men in terms of a Husband & Wife, Sister & brother r/s. ..simply put..it should reflect the very same love, Christ has for his bride; the church.

so much ...to write about..and so much more...and the funniest thing, I didn't expect it, but some of my giftings had never been so sharp. N there's a growing desire now to join in the war of spiritual warefare. Becoz, our enemies aren't against flesh & bones..but the unseen.

n lastly, I would like to thank the soccer guys, that despite my goal drought.. I've been still welcome in the team. Haha. N your concern has really been appreciated. Although physically weak, you've made my spirit stronger.
For that I thank you.

grace.