Lord,
I pray that you'll keep my heart humble towards you. My heart tender towards my community and a spirit that is sensitive. So many things have happened. I don't claim any credit for what has happen on the 'progress' made. For it is not by works nor acts that I've 'recovered' for these acts are meaningless n not worth to boast but rather Lord, your servant is humbled by your gracious love and pardon. Help me Lord not to wonder why did I not react this way immediately, for such thoughts are not for me to grasp, nor for me to wonder. I know that you've allowed this journey for me for it is in your purpose in pruning me alone. If you do lead me to share, Lord may only your glory be prasied. For in this process, you have showed what's ugly and how I've not placed my eyes and trust enough. Even a minute disobedience, is a lack of faith.
Lord, for I cannont hide behind circumstances or people or even myself, for nothing is worth fighting for, its focus worthless unless you're in the MAIN picture. I may have want you so much even at this dark period, but unless my heart burns with the passion for you and you alone, then it'll be worthless.
Please Lord, keep me humble and aware that even now, I've not come out of the shadows becoz I understand tat till the day I'm in your kingdom, I cannont let my guard down. Please let me not trust my mind, for its limitations are so obivious, nor my heart for wat good is passion when it drags me everywhere. Neither is my spirit mature enough to decide on its own. Therefore Lord, till the day, my mind is Christlike, my heart mellow and compassionate like your son, and my spirit seeking your will more than out of my own desires. Lord... Please take me under your wings of guidance.
I'm nothing without you. I can chase after everything, but it'll all be meaningless, even chasing your 'cause' will be pointless unless I've a relationship with you becoz I love you. Your son, desire a return father, if you would take me back again, I thank you always for you've continued to nuture my faith in you.
Your son.