Identity doesn't matter & updates
Tat'll be a special place.
Not that people will be any less of who they're or if the past was meaningless..
but instead, your source of identity is accepted and embraced regardless..
but is that possible?
Can we truly have such a noble place,
where sinners & saints are embraced in the same place
for a common purpose towards a common desire.
Is tat the calling for HIGHLIFE?
I've always found the people that have been able to accept others for who they're, regardless of watever hurts or circumstances..aka .the noble people...
the people who truly understood the command of "loving one another as how I've loved u.." n ,"only those who're blameless are fit to judge another."
I strive to be someone like tat daily..n to me, I pray that this habit can no longer be just a habit but a very personal 'outlook' towards others.
My acts of respect & love at times may defy human wisdom.. and irriate others, N i've often ask myself, why did I make a fool of myself. Is my nature such foolishness.. I don't know. But I do know, that God has placed in me, such a desire to always be faster in acts of love than of others. Even my desire to recognise people has been mocked these days, n my intentions questioned...but for those who know me, like him above, you'll know my intention has always been towards love ...nothing else. So please forgive me if you've thought otherwise.
Health wise, I don't really know, becoz my body has been so numb with pain at times, I don't feel pain worth considering. Surely, I want to be healed, n I keep my eyes forward to the day of my heavenly body. Feeling sore n in pain has become a personal walk for me each day.
Hebrews. Tat's has been my focus. To read the book of hebrews and apply those wonderful truths into my life. I need them so much more.
Crying. Yup, I've been crying still..whether its in the night or walking thru the camp gates. I've not become a sissy or sorts, but rather, I just couldn't bottle my emotions.. The evenings have been long n hard, n sometimes my heartbreak just feels so heavy that it could fall away..but I know..only, when I cry out to him, would I have any hope for the next day.
The un-explainable joy. Even at the pits of emotions, when I sing out the songs of praise..I'm fill-ed with this peace n it grows to joy. My heart can be so tired n all my emotions are so un-trustable..I force myself..becoz of the little love I've left, I dedicate it to him. To praise him even when I mourn or just have to get out of sinning.
I know I'm far from the final article, n so many question linger in my head, but I know tat I may not even understand the answers to all my questions, I just keep placing that trust in him. Tat I really am in love with him still n will continue to worship him regardless....
My prayer
Lord, I maybe so far from where u want me to be. But I recognise your goodness and favor. Your love has kept me going and I know that you would only disicpline the ones you love. I accept that all these were allowed to happen so that you could totally break me and mould me in charachter and faith. I humbly submit all I've to you once again. Please forgive me for my actions and disobedience that do not reflect your love. May I be refreshed and re-newed each day in your hands. Thank you so much father that u've allowed me to love you so much more and speak to you always. I pray that I'll be a child that never cease to seek you.
In Jesus Holy name..
amen.