I want to believe.

Lord,
I want to believe the answer is 2.
I want to believe your promises are for me too.
I want to see you so much more than the questions I've.
I want to know not the answer but the meaning thru this all..
I want to know tat I'm special in U, regardless if I'm special to others.
Help me cut away the lies I've in me tat holds me back.
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I've become a wuss, because I'm afraid to hurt others, to trouble people.
I don't wish for others to avoid me, I rather leave.
I know I've lost my wings of confidence, so wateva I do,
I raise as much faith as I can, just to ask others, or to bless if possible.
I know I'm not the quality you may need, but if you allow me to, maybe I can try somethings.
I'm afraid if I do get back my confidence, it will still be a waste.
I don't know if I can get back in line, but I've to try.
I've to keep fighting my way back thru him who strengthens me. If not,
I'll forever remain the same.

I want to be bold once again becoz he lives. N not because of my strength or my situations. I need the grace of my friends, tat when I do fail, pls understand.

There're only a few parts of me tat remains sane, a few of me tat remains the same. If I even let go of these, I'll proably be lost forever into darkness.

Lord,I want to look at u in the centre of my life, n believe tat u're in control ..
I want to take action on it even if people don't believe me.