Thank U

For the people who have been patient.
to the folks tat bother to smile,
from the bottom of my heart,
I would like to say I appreciate it very much.

Although I feel my emotions are still on the rocks,
but I pray that I'm following the spirit into the right places.
I'm trying to push myself not to give in, to give up..
becoz I want to be with him once again.

I feel I've nothing worthy to give up anymore.
No pride, nothing worthy..
even my body is decaying,
but I'm not to pay the price with my body ..

If u were to base any judgment on me now, it might be unfair,
but tat's how life on earth goes doesn't it.
Therefore, my gratitude to those who care.
For those who have shown their love, I just want to say it has encouraged me more.

As for now, when the pain overwhelms my body,
when I lie in bed, screaming in pain..
when loneliness creeps up, n self-doubt threatens to overpower me once again,
all I try is to whisper his name n trust in him.

I lost my voice,
n being a mute for days doesn't seem so bad.
but does tat matter anymore?

I will always treasure the past n the people tat have been in my life..
n for them n myself...

13 Brethren, *I* do not count to have got possession myself; but one thing -- forgetting the things behind, and stretching out to the things before, 14 I pursue, [looking] towards [the] goal, for the prize of the calling on high of God in Christ Jesus. Phil 3:13-14