These are the days....I'm fine
I'm not ready for anything more.
Last night's sermon was had a great title; a perfect Starting from a perfect God.
But tat's not for me. (not yet!)
I tried. I ask for a new start...in everything. with everyone.
nearly everyone seems to be willingly. except.
i know its impossible to ask for forgiveness and for her to judge me anew.
but i tried.
I keep praying one day, God willingly, ................
but for now..
I'll follow instructions from others, to leave her alone. N in doing so, I'm alone. may she lived out her life as she wants .....
if she would, in the same breath, remember with a smile of me.
I pledge my life to protect hers, and now, like parents, I've to let her go, so.....
I 'm thankful she still cares for me, if I'm on her list, among her list, below hamsters etc..I'll..be blessed.
I don't even think of her much, I want to venture out more into ministry etc, but now becoz she's there, I'm not allowed to be near.
Thus, sitting alone isn't tat bad.
my qt has been ok.
I'm not bitter. I'm just tired of all these. All the rules, all the 'ways'.. the more I follow, the more lost I get.
Christ, you know me best;
I stand before u..
seeking your face once again.
Have mercy on me.