day2
today was a continuation of yesterday.
can u attempt to be 'helpful' w/o accept any affirmation or recognition?
I guess I do. One great joy is always to be able to do secert acts of service for people. Whether they accept it or appreciate it...well..its..unpredictable.

today is abt pain. Major pain. Putting thru that barrier of physical limitation and knowing why i'm doing so. I just hope tat even playing a sport I've been blessed to do so, I'm worshipping him. Doing wat God has made me to do, is my worship. It may not be great, but its the best I can do.

My broken body needs a miracle. But me living thru each day is already a blessing from God. Yes, human touch has been lovely n special..wat more divine touch will be.

i'm growing a sensitivity in God tat even though I'll weak, he's strong. Yes, I do feel lonely at times, but the holy spirit is my company.
I wish we could still be friends. Not just another tag. From someone who couldn't help talking to me, till a total silence...I'm not trying to break wat's been a blessing to her. I'm not trying to squeeze in. I've accepted, she may never call on her own will. tat's settle in my heart. I see my role now as just someone tat can pray for her. I won't push it. I won't demand anything. Yes, she made promises previously, but who am I to hold her to it. I'm nothing w/o God.

wat measures it takes to love a 'cripple'? Only God knows. I'm in no position for anything now. Accept n be ready n let him work in & thru me. May someone still love a 'cripple'.