being touched by the Almighty God.

its 3am in the morning..but I've to put this down before I can rest.
I feel more re-fresh..beind touched by the almighty God then hours of 'rest'.

I was really nervous abt this saturday previously. I was afraid if I would say the wrong things during my counselling session n stuff... But before each step, I just couldn't help but continually prayed.. Lord..guard my heart n mind...n let me hear u. If I'm too clogged up to hear from u directly, then..let me be humble to let others be vessels n speak to me. Becoz.. I needed to know the Almighty still has thoughts of me.

I wanted to cycle to church today..but my dad took the bicylce..so no choice.. had to take bus. I didn't wanted to, becoz I fear that I might bump into her, n she will be uncomfortable ... n by God's grace..on our way back..we could just talk abit more. Nothing really pretencious.. I don't wish to jump the gun n say all things are fine..but its a step foward tat God himself planned. Becoz my own plans were otherwise. But anyway.. I'm glad to hear things directly from her. THANK YOU ms feret!! N how I wished we did this in the first place, but God's timing was perfect..becoz we had to go thru our own stupid efforts first, n fail n hurt each other first...so tat we can admit defeat on our own ways n allow the ALMIGHTY GOD work his way.
Besides hearing from her, I had great advise from our pastor, n his words I hold dear. I don't wish to harp on any single issue, but accept everything in its totality ...I believe God will kick-start my growth, I just need to be willing.

I got prayed for today. Becoz, I didn't wanted to be a leaky Christian. A stewart terrifed of his giftings n feeling unworthy of it. I just surrendered everything tat I could to him.
If men who are evil knows to give good things to others, wat more can we expect from the Father who's goodness is his very nature.

Let me end, with this quote from my devotional,...We impoverish his ministry the moment we forget He is Almighty....We become poor specimens of Christians when we've no Almighty Christ living in us.. Tat's not to say tat God's abilities are limited under our control. But its an acknowledgement tat how often we're the ones that clogs up the works God wishes to work in us. Its a partnership.
N today, God is saying...Shane ..your grief/pain is real, n cast it in exchange for my JOY. n yes... I did.
I've been touched by him once again. WAt a blessing!