Affairs of the heart.

I didn't think abt it too much, till a few evenings back, someone wanted to talk abt it.
N it started the thought process again.

Is the shambles of my r/s reflective of the life I'm in now? Does it have such an impact?

He keep asking me to move on. Like I've to 'move on' the way, others want me to be.

Yes, I've changed. I don't particually love who I'm now, N its still me facing me every single day.

Is thinking of the past with a smile wrong?
Is it wrong to have hope...espically, since LOVE is abt hope.
LOVE to me isn't abt possesion, its abt hope, its abt letting the person be the best he/she can be.
That hasn't change.
My outlook in love hasn't change. Some people say I'm impractical. Others say I'm foolish. Yes, love can make a person look foolish. Look at the cross. Think of scraifice.
Love isn't just abt being in a relationship. True love doesn't need a diet of emotional feeding.. neither is it built on promises. Love never demands it to be right.
Previously, I couldn't say with confidence wat Love was, since it seems to only be such a blessing..such joy for 2 to be in love. But today, I can write before you, that I have a better understanding of it..much better appreciation to this blessing.
Love can also torment.. like how we wretch God's heart, when we flee his love n embrace sin.
Someone says, don't worry when your head takes control over your heart, you will find it easier to tame it.
Yes, LOVE is a fantantical emotion. N emotions can be controlled.
But do you know why you're doing so?
Are you controlling feelings for the pursuit of meaningless things or for something worth more?

I've submitted those feelings to the cross. Someone ask me to kill it.. If only I could. If they only knew my heart now. They say they understand, then can they understand..I need their understanding and not push me into their moulds of corrective actions to take. Its not my pride. I've tried. I've to follow his plans now.

some songs & phrases, I find it impossible to say anymore....becoz..like memories, they'll forever remain special to me. N I take them as tokens of a life, God has protected me n bless me from the start.