Silence.
Recently, 2 ppl really close to me have ask me to be silent with them. They're as close as family. My inner circle.
I hope its not becoz they dislike me, but both people need their space.
Ironically, both are different spectrum on the spiritual journey.
One is stepping out and owning the faith, my 'noise' kinda distracts or confuses.
The other, is taking stock in his spiritual walk.. He requested to me stay out for now.
I was kinda amused. But God spoke to me, tat it isn't abt me so much, but its abt Him.
Remember Christ will draw all men to him. Therefore, I'm just a vessel for Christ. I 've no solution watsoever rather, I can only pray for God to protect and be re-newed in their life. Even it hurts, tat those close to us, we can do little for, but tat's the truth. We can only intercede for them. And pray tat the r/s between us, won't be tested by the devil during this period of 'pruning'..
I respect their decision. I just continue to press on in prayer for them.
--------------------------on a personal note--------------
I failed my medical examination for a BMT recourse. It would have been nice to go back, but I'm termed, medically unfit. Some guys even 'marvel' how I did it. I have no tricks. Yes. I'm a sick man who really prays and with faith tat i'll be healed. Someone once mention, that maybe its becoz of my lack of faith tat's y I'm not healed. The comment hurt for tat moment. And I disagree. Which sick person doesn't want to be healed. Being sick for a long time, causes depression, but also grows humility. It has also grown in me a dependency on God and tat my pain, its also a testmony that He will show he lives.
On the subject of pain, due to my constant diet of painkillers, I seem to have a wrong pain scale. This evening, as I played badminton, I totally twisted my right ankle off position. There was this 'crack' sound, my leg felt weak, but there seem to be no pain. Not yet. And more painkillers before I sleep !!
Pain reminds us that something is wrong. Wat happens when u can't feel pain. Hmmm, kinda werid. My foot is bandage up to prevent anymore injury, the ankle seem to have no strength, but the pain isn't much there. Maybe tomm will be different.
I just pray nothing is broken.
But God is faithful.
Though he allows me to be in pain, he has also allowed me to have a family tat is here. Not tat they can do much, but hey atleast there's someone to help a limping sick person. And thru that, I know God is good.
Look ard, and u'll see God's goodness.
Glory and praise to him.
Honour him thru love.