cny eve.
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wat dwells on your mind on these days?
Thinking of your red packet(ang bao) collection in advance or the alvance of new year goodies tat are awaiting your tummy? Or maybe just enjoying all the warmth in visitng friends and family.
Holidays are dear to me, not so much the food, gifts ...and yes, I love the company of holidays, but somethings unseen are just special to me.
In it, I see and acknowledge God's goodness in all things. Blessed are those who made the hands of the delights we're to consume, the financial ability of our elders to bless us finanically, or purely journey mercy when families meet and gather. Or simply the peace we 're recieving as a nation.
In all things, acknowledge the presence of God in his rich blessings---> Tat's my motivation and source of living today. Becoz victory has already been won on V-day, but from now till the end, how we live it out, is just such a responsibilty ....
I feel being love by God above. Having been sick for some time, mortality was also something tat crops out on my mind. When, I was younger, it was important for me to leave behind a 'legacy'... thus i became more conern abt working achievements. All things were 'good', in some ways, but it pales in comparsion with wat God has for me in life; this and beyond earthy living. Not just attaining status, not just winning this or having more money. Becoz life is more than just these.
God was more concern abt me. I remembered one period of my life, when i wondered, how nice it would be to have more money in my bank a/c ...less money problems. But, thru time, God showed me why he has blessed me by not burdening me with the responsibilty of having to be a STRONG STEWARD of FINANCIAL matters.
'POOR PPL HAVE MONEY PROBLEMS, RICH PPL HAVE MONEY PROBLEMS TOO'...
tat same principal applies to everything..on earth. If I ever wonder why I'm having this problem, and how nice the other 'situation' would help, I'm only ignoring the fact that the 'situation' has its own headaches too..only God will show us why we've to go thru all these, to strengthen us for,'it his desire tat no man should perish', --->In conclusion each 'problem' is a statement, how of much we need God in our lives to bring us thru by his grace. On our own two feet, we may have 'short-sighted' success, but at the end of the day, we only be so empty inside, if we leave God out of the picture.
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I wish to end this entry...with a very personal note.
Cheryl,
with the web audience as my witness, I wish to state my sincere apology. I know there's nothing I can do to make-up for my nusinance in the last few weeks. I can apologise a thousand times, but it will matter little, if I don't take corrective measures.
I understand if you don't wish to speak to me again, or accept my apology. I constantly pray for favor and grace in your life, and one-day, you may extend it to me.
Thank you for being a wonderful friend, and how you have made my life special with your personal involvement. I know its not an easy decision for u to make, and I apologise tat I mention if u were being impulsive.
I don't dare to ask for anything more from you, and I just pray that God willing, we will continue to seek God earnestly, and let God decide our paths.
The best gift I can give you this holiday, isn't my time, cookies or another pet. I hope tat my 'silence' from you, is a gift tat can bring joy to your soul. You've been so special in my life, the best I can do for u now, is to...give you space and let you decide what you wish to deal with me.
Grace on your soul & Take Care.
God bless you and family.