...monday..daylight.
I couldn't get a wink of sleep the whole morning from 1 am till offical wake-up timing...thus..i started dreading the day.
Couldn't eat much again.
managed to get work done.
had a good badminton training in camp till 8.15pm.
dinner was good.
watching another oldie movie-striking distance: it had a young 'babelious' sarah jessica parker.. I wasn't turn-on...but amused tat she looked so young. And bruce willis had HAIR!! haha
prayer time was good.
I'm constantly praying that my 'grief' times are over. Not tat somethings won't hurt, but I'm just praying and hoping things for the better always. I'm thankful nothing else, has really been added onto the 'emotional load'...Geezzz
Yesterday, at sentosa with my sporty cell, instead of looking much at the sea and the action happening, I had my eyes fixed on the presidential suite at the Rasa Sentosa. Had great memories there. Not of frolicking in bed sheets, but feeling accepted and blessed being with her whole family then. ANd of course, it was another great memory with a smile.
I'm continuing to pratcise self-control, not to call, e-mail if she doesn't want any, n not attending mutual friends parties to avoid compromising situations.
My concern for her is still so strong, and I wish I could still protect and bless her..(irony tat a sick man offers protection---make tat deterant!)
She is not only special to me. SHE is PRECIOUS. She is a gift of GOD, like all others, just tat I can't stop myself or lie to myself tat I don't love her.
And love is gentleness, meek and patient. (I'm LEARNING!)
I'm continuing to pray tat God works thru us and grant us better health.
May God's love for us, renew us, and our love for him fills and exceeds our expection. therefore...loving others as he loves us.

I aim not only to reflect God's love...I aim to reflect God in my r/s, actions and help others know there is a true living Christ. Becoz he has blessed me so.