"What good is a man, if he gains the world and loses his soul."
Luke

Today was something different. Nothing spectular but different.
We didn't talk or sms each other. For the first time in 5 1/2 years, whenever we're on this island country, we would continue to talk and share each other's day. But not today.

Qn:Was it hard?
Well, it wasn't easy, but the Lord was gracious.

Qn:Do i still love her?- my closest friend asked.
Ans: Yes. If ever, maybe even more. For I'm really glad in a way, that she's so serious abt God tat she is willingly to give up her 'treasure' on earth. Tat alone, is worth marrying her. For now I'm certain, she's serious abt God, and I didn't need to bare her burdens anymore.We're serious abt God, and we've faith that he'll give us strength throughout this time, and if he blesses us, we'll enter a new r/s being more blessed than ever. For as mention above, its pointless to gain this relationship and lose our souls in eternity.

My friends tell me, there're other fishes in the pond, other flowers along the road, but there's this chinese saying, never pick wild flowers. And ironic, during QT some day back, God showed me, NEVER TO DRINK FROM OTHER SPRINGS BUT ONLY FROM THE FOUNTAIN OF YAR WIFE. It encouraged me, thus, sorry ladies, but u may be beautiful and great, but there's alreay someone there, hidden in the closet of my heart. Only God can open the lock and relase it. I've put that key in God's hands. He may never allowed it to be open, but hey, at least I've been blessed.

I really trust the Lord to allow us to be friends, becoz tat was how we started. We're friends. Nothing, God willingly will change tat. Its nothing wrong knowing someone very well, it matters how we treat each other, learning how to strengthen each other's faith, and bringing him/her closer to God. The r/s must honor him.

I do think of her alot, but by God's grace, it was never sexual, lustful. I thank the Lord for giving me the spirit of joy to be able to thank him for the positive and release all the hurts and sin at the foot of the cross.

And how's my day?
Well, work was hetic because I chose to bury myself with work. I thank the Lord tat he had and continue to instil a desire to honour him with my work/chores. Therefore, God's grace has given me strength to refrain from cursing and sleeping during working hours.
I wrote out a training programme today for my unit's badminton team. We've four quality players, and a RSM tat is a winner. Haha, my agenda is play my best and be a 'salt &light' there and honour God with the skills tat he has bestowed me with.
I played badminton today. Took my painkillers and all, and for the first game, I tried playing with my brace on, and it was horrible. I continue to struggle since, my mind wasn't focus. But prayer and continuing the desire to honour God drove me on. Of course, I do hope one day she'll play with me. I'll glady lose. :)
Slowly, my game got better. Today wasn't fantastic badminton but it taught me tat even thru physical pain, if u keep ur mind on God, the little nick is nothing compared to wat Christ suffered for our sins.
My body is really painful now. But I remember, "TO LIVE IS CHRIST, TO DIE IS GAIN"
I'm not going to kill myself, instead I'm going to size the day to honour him.
Even when I miss her, I want to honour God.
and u know wat,
Since God can provide for the birds in the sky, the trees, wildlife, God will provide a way for me to miss her in a way that honours HIM.
I never prayed that the LOVE will grow cold and die, instead, I pray that my love for her and everyone else, has to honour GOD. BUT FIRST, I've to learn to LOVE GOD better.
He's the reason, I'm here.
My pain is temporal, my joy in heaven when i see him is eternal.