....Imagine without God..

in this sinful world.. most of the time, we're chasing after wind.. - something tat we can feel but can't see..the intangible.
Love, Status, Security, Happiness etc.
Is it wrong to chase after them? Of course not. But thru this period of my life, i learnt tat if u put anything before God himself, then we'll struggle to even be near our 'heart's desire'..
I'm struggling because I've not let Christ come into my life and make sense into my challenging period. I understand it in my head, but my heart and soul doesn't recieve it.
During my quiet time today, I felt so stupid. I tried to hid my pain and shame from the Lord, but he took away. Does tat mean I hurt no more? No...it only means tat i've strength and hope for tomm.
God's grace amazes me. Christ died for our sins. Past, Current and Future. He did it for you too.
I want to re-focus my life on Christ more and more. My heart still longs for her- special, but Christ has given me hope. He asks me to trust him, and since i've been such a good failure trying on my own, why don't i let him do it instead.
Yes. I'll.
I learnt tat i can still love someone, and love God evenmore.. And desire God more.
She's still so special, but now, apart, I became some monster...I'm ashamed..I believe We must let God clean us up before we even re-consider anything else.
Its not abt me & her. Its abt GOD+S&C..
without him, its chasing after the wind on our senselss might.