be strong.

today was a long day.
played a little football today with the old team.
Played against them. well, I seem to end up as opposition all the time.
didn't score.
should have shot more.
couldn't play sharp ..

met cousin n his muse.
a new start for them.
drank coffee-o.
a short trip for me.

dinner was nice, just the boys and parents.
parents were in a good mood, chatted alot.
talked abt her. ....

went to china-town for a new year walkard.
mum bought me a new top. kinda special.
long squeezy walk. lots of ppl pushing ard.
limped back to the car after an hour odd.
took another half hour to exit the carpark.

came back totally wreck in body.
but God sustain me throughout.
very painful, but i trust this isn't my eternal body.

missed her. can't contact her.
don't want to become a bother to her.
don't want to be nag.
if not she might run away from me.

painkillers, had 8 so far, another 8 to go, before i attempt to rest.
being in pain is such a humbling experience.
esp when its nearly all the time.

but life goes on.
pain has taught me to respect and embrace moments of joy, and goodness.
my parents have shown how love can mature, from brickering parents, to a state, where u can see God's blessings on their marriage.

I've been blessed to witness it. who can i bless with my life?
did i bless her previously?
i really don't dare to ask, becoz i'm afraid she'll say no.

another day passes by.

God is good all the time.